I often feel a surge of anxiety. My feeling and thoughts rush at me all at once and I need an outlet to contain it. Since very young, I turned to journaling and art as a healthy coping mechanism.
When I gave my heart to Jesus, I had that incredible glow in my eyes. I had an exciting testimony, a gift of prophecy and was ready to take on the world. Things didn’t stay that way and I had to start chasing that feeling.
Often as my gift of prophecy dwindled, and a cavern opened between me and God. I felt he no longer saw me.
A whisper stopped me “It is you who speaks to me as though I’m a void.”
I need to begin communicated to God in any way I can and through any gift he gives me. Through Art, Poetry, and music.